Been Awhile but...

It has been awhile since I have posted, but I have been re-inspired to really get going with this blog.
Yesterday was a good day. Grandpa was here and cut the lawn for us, we had a good visit. The chickens are up to laying about 15 eggs a day. It is so exciting for the kids. Heather expecially. She runs out to the coop about 4 times a day to check for eggs. She loves it. I am not sure if she has made the connection of egg from chicken = egg on plate..lol...Tyler spent some time at Grandma and Grandpas this week, he just came home yesterday. He said he had a lot of fun. I love that my parents are into taking the kids and spending time with time. It really means alot to the kids and I think its nice for the kids to get away from the hustle and bustle of a busy household. But I must say that Tyler was happy to get home. Ashleigh has been working alot on her math workbooks. She is doing amazing, though her constant work on math has really put her want to learn to read on the back burner. Thats fine though, because when she is ready it'll happen. I know this.
That being said, I have been struggling recently with how people feel about me as a mom and my family. Expecially my Grandmother and Parents. I dont think they understand what or why I do the things I do, or parent the way I do. I try to supply them with information about the way we do things, but they dont seem to be interested in reading the information I give to them. However they are very ready to tell me that I am doing things wrong or that I am not giving my kids the best. I wish that they could trust me. They are constantly telling me that I have to much on my plate and that becuase I have a big family is why I should send them to publis school.I dont think this is fair. I have my weak days. I must admit. I made the mistake of going to my dad for support last week and now he has nothing good to say about my choices. It makes me sad that I am not allowed to have weak days without hearing about it for weeks on end. My Grandma keeps insisting that I HAVE to get "fixed"..though another child is not in our cards, I am sure. Why does she feel like she has to talk to me all the time about the things I should do that I am not doing. Why cant she be proud of me for the things I am doing. Everyone, other then my family, that comes into contact with my kids, think their amazing...why cant my family feel the same way? Dont get me wrong I want them to be able to state their opinons, becasue its important to be able to do thatm but if their so interested in my well being and the kids well being why wont they read the information I set out for them.
I have learnt that I cannot go to my family if I am feeling overwhelmed. Thats sad.
That being said, maybe the thing that I have to work on is not allowing my family to make me second guess myself. Thats the key..
anyway..
The kids are really loving living out here in the country. Its nice that they can run and run and run. I love that. The weather is getting cooler and the leaves are falling from the trees reminding us that winter is that far off. Summer has gone by so quickly this year. We were so busy that we hardly even noticed it.
We are still getting veggies from the garden. Amazing. I pulled out some carrots and turnip for dinner last night. They taste so much better out your own garden. I cannot wait till next year when our garden is even bigger.
I have decided that once a week I am going to post something about what I beleive in. I want to be able to put into words what it is I believe in pertaining to parenting and Unschooling and just being a good person.
At least then I will have my thoughts straight and documented. Next week it will be about TV and my thoughts about it. I will post it midweek.
Anyway, I am off to start the day. Be well and peace.
Phoenix and the fam